Crossroads

Decisions, decisions.

I do not like making decisions. Mostly because I am a perfectionist and I do not want to choose the wrong thing. Sometimes there is not a wrong thing or a right thing. Sometimes there is not even a better or a best thing.... but you can miss out on the best things in life if you are too focused on getting it right.

It is not so much the decision that bothers me, it is the outcome. In a world which preaches ‘“input equals output”, I am disillusioned to believe that I control my own destiny. Whether I choose job A or job B, public school or home school, organic or non-organic, this is true of The Sovereign.

“Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me; when as yet there was none of them.” Psalm 139:16

I want life to turn out well. I would like to live a long and healthy life, one devoid of pain and suffering. Sometimes I feel as if the decisions I make are what will determine my outcome. This type of thinking dethrones the King to whom I have given my allegiance. I am not saying “Que sera, sera” in a sense that excuses me from living the responsibilities God calls me to. I am saying, “Que sera, sera” in the sense that He has given me life for His glory, not my own comfort. Trying to figure out how to control what is not mine to control is fruitless. For a fruitful life I must let the Spirit guide my life, thoughts, decisions and actions.

When we understand that we make decisions and not outcomes, we make space for peace. We are free to see decisions as decisions, not friends or enemies. We stop liking or disliking decisions and learn to let go as we make them.

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