The Year I Have Been Waiting For

 

 

I have lived long enough to know it will be otherwise, but I am secretly hoping this new year is my year to “arrive”.  I have been hoping for a moment like this for some time, a moment when I am not regretting something, hoping for something.  A moment when I just am.  A moment when I am just thankful (not thankful but…), a moment when I am surrendered and at peace (not letting go and letting God except for…).  

 

A new year is coming and with it a new start, but there will still be something to regret and/or worry about, something to wait for with anticipation, something to fear. Life.  Sometimes it excites me, sometimes it wearies me.

 

“  He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength.  Even youths  shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.” Isaiah 40:29,30,31 (ESV)

 

Perhaps this is not my year to arrive but my year to wait.  Perhaps it is my year to wait, not for something but on Someone, Someone who knows all about my anxieties, hopes, and dreams,  Someone who not only knows about them, but can handle them all.  

 

“Have you not known?  Have you not heard?  The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth.  He does not faint or grow weary; his understanding is unsearchable.”  Isaiah 40:28 (ESV)

 

Perhaps this year can be filled with moments when I just am.  It will not be filled with those moments because my troubles will dissapear or because all of my dreams and expectations are realized, but rather because He is the great I AM.  He will not grow weary, even when I do.  The hopes I place in Him will not be disappointed.  He will not let me down even when life does.  May He teach me this year to wait on Him rather than a “moment”, that I might embrace the moments as they arrive.

 

                                "...but they who wait for the LORD shall renew their strength...."        

                                                                 Isaiah 40:31